And I Thought......

Now as far as I know, the constitution states that in the case of law everyone is innocent until proven guilty. There doesn't seem to be a whole lot of that going on. People are being locked up for crimes they didn't commit. Everyday somebody gets put away for something they didn't have anything to do with. It's really making me kind of sad. It's so not fair. Although, fair doesn't exist. It's a mere thought, hope, a dream. I hate how there are so many more bad things in the world then there are good. That might not be true but it certainly seems like it. I want so badly to just go a week with out hearing about more people dying in the middle east , or some priest getting arrested for rape. I don't want to get the phone calls saying that yet another friend of mine has died in Iraq. I want a week where I hear about marriages and job promotions. Things that are happy, things you want to celebrate. I realize now that this is a very big wish, a wish that will probably never happen. I guess I am on my own. Trying to stay happy. I have friends that I love with all my heart. They keep me happy...enough. We know how to make each other smile and that is the important thing. I'll stop with all the depressing words. Happy topics to come.

Okay, So, It's Time For The Sex Talk...

Okay we all knew it was coming sooner or later. I chose the sooner. So, if you know me, you know my outlook and opinions on sex. It has changed over the years but for right now I am at my firmest point in opinion. Does that make sense? Ha ha. Oh well. So my opinion on sex. WOW. I hope you are sitting down. Okay well, lets start off with single people. People, you are SINGLE!!! You aren't tied down to anyone. Go out, have fun, get laid. Who is it going to hurt? Don't sit at home complaining to your bff over facebook im about how much your sex life sucks. Log off (don't worry we all have facebook mobile now) and go out and have fun! That's all I have to say for you people. Next are my lovely married folks. Well guys, I'm sorry but you're married. You made a commitment. I hope you are in love and know what you are doing. Because sleeping with someone that isn't your husband/wife, well that's just wrong. Unless you guys are into that kind of thing, then you guys have my total and complete blessings. Have a good time. But please, no cheating. It's just not right. And not because you signed a piece of paper that says so, but because morally it's wrong. Okay, now we start with the toughies...boyfriends/girlfriends in the service or over/underage relationships. First, let me say something. There is a large difference between sex and making love. When you make love, it's to someone who you are probably in a serious relationship with, or you're married. Or maybe it's your best friend and you both just realized that you are madly in love with each other. Who knows. But that is making love. Sex, well sex is sex. There is nothing to it. You and some girl/guy, maybe somebody you even know, get together and you talk, you might drink, then you both realize how horny you are. So you find a condom, and you screw. That's it. I mean obviously there is more to it. It all depends on what you like to do, what your partner likes to do...you get the point. So back to my opinions. If your boyfriend/girlfriend is in the services...well this gets complicated. That is really left up to you guys. It's hard when one person in 8,000 miles away. If you guys have some sort of agreement, well all the power to ya. If not, girls its time to pay a visit to the sex shops and guys ...stock up on your porn. Better to be faithful then to be broken up with someone over ichat. And now, I've saved the best for last...over/underage relationships. This one is also hard. I personally don't' believe in age. It shouldn't matter. If you are 26 and you have feelings for a 16 year old, who the hell cares??? Ten years, big deal. Look at Hugh Hefner. Unfortunately the "higher powers" a.k.a. the government feels differently. It changes from state to state but in most of America the age of consent is 18. There are a few places where it is 16. Like VEGAS...such a beautiful place. Anyway, if you guys like each other then go for it. If you're gonna have sex, just keep in on the DL. Make sure you use protection. You don't want a pregnancy. That would get messy. You all have my blessings no matter what your situation is. We live in a free country, do what you want. Just try and be smart about it.

xoxo

Alicia

Presley's B-Day and some Updates

Today was my good friend Presley's' sweet 16 party. It was a surprise and believe me, she was SHOCKED. Around four twenty we were picked up by a stretch limo. A Chrysler limo might I add. So out popped her boyfriend, Devon, and she almost fell over. She was so overwhelmed with joy. Around four forty five we all piled in the limo and went on our merry way. Where were we going? We had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA!!! Nobody but the limo driver and our "chaperon" knew. So we're having fun drinking some sodas and blasting music when we pull up in front of Disney's Soda Fountain and Studio Store. We get in and were we shocked...oh my god. We had these HUGE ice cream things that we were supposed to finish. We finished both of them. Every last bite. So then we pile back into the limo and start driving away. Again we didn't know where we were going. Eventually we ended up at Presley's boyfriends house. Then the party started. Music, Food, Dancing, Food, Music, Food....you get the point. It was a fun night all in all. Here are some pictures.

Presley when she realized what was going on.

Me being....me.

All of us in front of the limo.....

Hump Day!!!

I'll start off with: Happy Hump Day everyone!

So I'm just curious, what did I do to deserve this? First I sprain my ankle, now Ms.Goodman is making me write a paper about John Smith? Who I absolutely despise. I've got some issues with him. I will always hate Disney for totally changing what ACTUALLY happened. I mean come on, they totally reversed it all. Those losers. Anyways it's Hump Day. Which means tomorrow is Thursday, which means that the day after is FRIDAY! Which I'm looking forward to. I can't say why yet because I am sworn to secrecy , but you guys will hear all about it. Saturday should be pretty good. Maybe "hanging out" with 23, then I have a wedding dinner for my sister. No, she isn't actually my sister, but she is close enough. Anyway she is getting married in October in New Jersey. So we're doing a west coast thing. Not all of us can fly all the way out there. I wish I could. So that's about it for today. Hope all is well with everyone!

Seriously, Are You For Real???

Okay, I'm sorry, but she lost my interest a LONG time ago. An hour ago to be exact. This is just insane. Ugh. Biology for two hours. Do they really expect us to pay attention the WHOLE time? So I am writing for all you people. Not that anybody actually reads this. Yet I continue to blab about my unstable, un-normal, indescribable life. For all of you that are in school, you know how I feel. So there is this guy, lets call him.....23. He is cute, smart, and totally interested. We IM all the time, talking about various things; always really cool, really chill. But then we get together in real life and there is this weird barrier between us. I really want to break that barrier, I just don't know how to. He knows a side of me that many people have never seen. I feel comfortable with him. It's nothing like that. I want to figure that out. Then there is this other guy, lets call him...Turtle. Now Turtle is GORGEOUS. OMG do I want him. Here's the problem, he has absolutely no interest. I don't think. OMG, if he did, I would be THE happiest person in the world. Wow. Um. yeah. Some very nice thoughts just went through my head. He is so hot and he is really sweet. It's so cute how his face lights up when he See's us. That's about it for now. I've got 25 minutes left in the day. Then I am released into freedom. Thank God. Or whoever. Anyways, comment me, email me.

xoxo

Is It Normal, Or Is It Just Me???

I honestly can't tell anymore. I don't know when things are normal or if it's just me. There are so many things that I do and think and some of them scare the shit out of me. I'm realizing things from my past that I would have never thought twice about, things that are bad. Certain things that I can't do anything about anymore. It's too late. And I don't know if what I think happened, actually did, only because it was at least four years ago. I can't tell the truth from my imagination anymore. I don't know how to fix this, if it's even fixable. I don't even know what "it" is. I'm going days thinking one and only one thing. "I wish I was home, in my bed, crying." I constantly feel like crying. I cry myself to sleep, to school, when I'm just sitting around. I hate feeling like this, but I don't know how to make it go away. I guess I can't do much until I identify what the problem is. I guess in a way, it goes back to the whole question of what life is. Why is it so complicated? Why are we forced to go through so many things? Why pain and hurt, loss and sorrow? Why does it seem like there are more bad aspects to life then there are good? is this really what we were put on Earth for? Is this why we are here? Day to day I ask my self so many questions that I can't answer.

Okay So...

Okay so, I didn't end up missing my flight. So I got home on time. YAY! If you weren't one of the people I called, then you have no idea how panicky I was. There were so many complications I thought I was going to die. I was going crazy. And now as I write this, while sitting in a costco parking lot I might add, I realize how happy I am to be home. Back in Los Angeles. I guess it's true, you never really realize how much you miss home until you leave. I have to say, I did cry a few times. Mainly worrying about my dad. Goes to show how powerful love is. I have to say,I had a huge panic attack, but that was for other reasons. You don't realize many things until you don't have them anymore. It got right now to me missing the buses (mta). I think that by growing up in such a large city, and having so many options, going to a small town like Margate really makes a difference. You can feel it and see it. Obviously. I miss Jersey, sure, but will I ever end up there? I can't see it happening. I can see moving out of L.A. but not to a small town. If anything, to another city. Anyway I'm home, and safe and everything is all good. As good as it can be anyway. I hope everyone is well.

Lost In The Skys

It's Atlanta all over again. Taking off 2 hours late, ,already missed my flight. It's ridiculous. On top of that, they are STILL charging for EVERYTHING. I am going to end up in a hotel room in Phoenix, Arizona. WOW is all I can even say. I don't know if I should laugh or cry at this point. Normally I wouldn't even care, but the stewardesses are being very rude. What do they expect at this point? People are going to be pissed. Not many people want to spend the night in a hotel, away from home, or wherever they are going. Think of the people that are traveling by themselves... Think of how lonely they will be. If you don't know me then you should know that generally I am a very spontaneous and friendly person, but even this is getting to me. I guess I will talk to people, get to know them. As much as I love flying, I think this is why I like trains better. I guess my ipod and cell phone will have to be my sole entertainment tonight. Oh well. I want to especially thank Alicia + Phil for providing my pure amusement for the past two weeks. Thank you thank you. I LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER!!!