Piano Man - Billy Joel

I have been thinking about my mom a lot lately. Not really too sure why though. Her birthday is in November and the anniversary of her death is in March, so monumental dates is not really an option. I guess there are just a lot of things that I wish I could talk to her about. There are always those people that say you can talk them or if you ever need someone to call them but come on, lets be real shall we? None of us ever actually call that person. You appreciate the thought but accept the fact that the one who you want to talk to you can't. For me that person is pretty much my mothers side of the family.

Now please do not get me wrong. I love my family and what I am about to say is going to make me sound like a brat but I do not want to hear about my dead mother from the sister and brother and parents that got to know her. I understand that they lost her as well and yes it was probably worse for them because they had actually had a relationship with her but I was 15 months old when my mother died from Leukemia and honestly I do not want to hear about the fun times you had together. That is not going to make me feel any better. I probably sound pretty awful huh? Maybe I take after my dad too much. We didn't really talk about my mom growing up. He would answer questions if I asked them but it would a short a quick conversation. I simply grew accustomed to it. Feels like I am rambling. Let us go on to another topic shall we?

I would like to write a little bit about a really close friend of mine. Justine "Liza" Valdez. She is pretty much the best person ever. We met, oh, 6 years ago five or take a few months, yeah, that sounds about right. Over the past six years we have become super close. To the point of calling each other sisters. I love this girl with every fiber in my body. Seriously one of the strongest people I know. She has been there for me in very dark times and there are not enough thank yous in the world to cover what she has done for me. Hardcore the big sister I never had. Guess I just wanted to say I love you girly girl and you hold such a huge portion of my heart. <3

Friends really are the best people in the world. I am overwhelmed by the amount of amazing friends I have in my life. People that have stuck by me through the dark times AND sunny days. There are too many to list but they know who they are. I love you all.

Oh, hey look, it's official. We work together.

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