What Ever Happened to Saturday Night? - The Rocky Horror Picture Show

I am getting WAY better at this. It has only been two weeks since my last post. That is definitely a step up. Be proud be very proud. Lets evaluate shall we? I can't really complain too much actually. There might be a guy who has caught my eye...okay..well..he definitely caught my eye. Apparently I am very near in his eyesight as well. I do not want to talk too much about it because I would rather not jinx this one. He has a car and a job though so we are on the right track.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I should probably go on about the things I am thankful for. This time of the year most people write about how thankful they are for their family. Maybe this makes me a terrible person, but this year I am MOST thankful for my friends. They have been there for me this year like no one could ever even dream of wishing for. I am truly blessed to have the friends I do. They seriously are the most supportive group of people ever. I do not think anyone is as lucky as I am. If you are taking the time to read this right now then you are more than likely one of the people I consider to be part of the category I am praising right now.

Been thinking about my mom more then usual. I had an emotional melt down on set last week. (Which might I add is pretty much the LAST place you want to be seen bawling your eyes out.) The call started out with 50 people and half way through the day they asked who wanted to stay and who wanted to go. The AD cut 35 extras and kept 15 of us. It was when our group got to 15 that we all moved our chairs together and sat in a circle. Everything was fine until people started sharing stories from their childhoods, most of them girls, most of them about shopping and going to see plays and all the different things their moms have done for them. A part of me is mad at myself for feeling the way I did because I have experienced most of those things with Marlene. I think it was jealousy that got the better of me. Me being jealous of the relationships, the bonds that they have with their mothers. Now it might be mostly my own fault that I do not have that kind of bond or loving friendship with Marlene. I don't hate her. I am thrilled that my father has found someone that makes him happy. Someone that he wants to spend his life with. He is a good man and deserves to have someone in his life. At this point in my life, I simply want him to be happy and feel love. Love is such a powerful emotion. Love is power itself.

I am going to end on that note today. Everyone deserves to have love in their life. People make mistakes, they make the wrong decisions, say the wrong things, take the wrong turns in life, but eventually we get back on the path we were and are destined to take. Don't be afraid to open your heart because the love that comes to you can drive you to be the best person you can be.

Happy Thanksgiving.