What Ever Happened to Saturday Night? - The Rocky Horror Picture Show

I am getting WAY better at this. It has only been two weeks since my last post. That is definitely a step up. Be proud be very proud. Lets evaluate shall we? I can't really complain too much actually. There might be a guy who has caught my eye...okay..well..he definitely caught my eye. Apparently I am very near in his eyesight as well. I do not want to talk too much about it because I would rather not jinx this one. He has a car and a job though so we are on the right track.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I should probably go on about the things I am thankful for. This time of the year most people write about how thankful they are for their family. Maybe this makes me a terrible person, but this year I am MOST thankful for my friends. They have been there for me this year like no one could ever even dream of wishing for. I am truly blessed to have the friends I do. They seriously are the most supportive group of people ever. I do not think anyone is as lucky as I am. If you are taking the time to read this right now then you are more than likely one of the people I consider to be part of the category I am praising right now.

Been thinking about my mom more then usual. I had an emotional melt down on set last week. (Which might I add is pretty much the LAST place you want to be seen bawling your eyes out.) The call started out with 50 people and half way through the day they asked who wanted to stay and who wanted to go. The AD cut 35 extras and kept 15 of us. It was when our group got to 15 that we all moved our chairs together and sat in a circle. Everything was fine until people started sharing stories from their childhoods, most of them girls, most of them about shopping and going to see plays and all the different things their moms have done for them. A part of me is mad at myself for feeling the way I did because I have experienced most of those things with Marlene. I think it was jealousy that got the better of me. Me being jealous of the relationships, the bonds that they have with their mothers. Now it might be mostly my own fault that I do not have that kind of bond or loving friendship with Marlene. I don't hate her. I am thrilled that my father has found someone that makes him happy. Someone that he wants to spend his life with. He is a good man and deserves to have someone in his life. At this point in my life, I simply want him to be happy and feel love. Love is such a powerful emotion. Love is power itself.

I am going to end on that note today. Everyone deserves to have love in their life. People make mistakes, they make the wrong decisions, say the wrong things, take the wrong turns in life, but eventually we get back on the path we were and are destined to take. Don't be afraid to open your heart because the love that comes to you can drive you to be the best person you can be.

Happy Thanksgiving.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved - Straight No Chaser

It's been a while again. Got distracted. You can blame Halloween Horror Nights. Hope everyone had a happy Halloween. I am a little sad tonight. I am sitting in my dining room messing around on my laptop with my headphones in while listening to Pandora when my dad walks in the room with a very stern and maybe even disgusted look on his face. I take out one of my earphones and he looks at me and just says "don't." I look at him and ask "don't what?" His reply is "don't sing." Now I will admit that I am no where near talented when it comes to singing and any of my friends can tell you that but I was merely singing along to the song "Belle" from the musical Beauty and the Beast.

Maybe I am overreacting to his comment but it hit really close to my heart and made me feel a little hurt, I mean was it really necessary to make the comment? Just close the door. I think right now, I might just possibly be an emotional wreck. Been crying a lot lately. I am going to blame my mom for this round of tears. She has been on my mind a lot recently. I am so over crying over her. I know that sounds awful but COME ON....how many nights do I need to cry myself to sleep over a woman I never knew?

Anyways NEWS!!!!!!!!!!! I have a twin! I know?!? Crazy right!?!? Her name is Ally. We are the same person. Ya'll are just going to have to deal with it. There is not much to say except I love her and that is the end of it. Hope everyone has a fantastic week. Leave me some comments yeah??