This April will mark 18 years since my mom passed away. I've been really sad lately and I am very confident that this is the reason. Growing up without a mom is hard, but growing up with everyone telling you that you are a spitting image of her...even harder. I love my family, please do not get me wrong but my mom was taken from me. They got to know her for all her life some of them. I get to live off of pictures, and journals. I have been told that I look exactly like her, that I sound like her that I remind you of her, but my question to the world is... How is that suposed to make ME feel better? I get to sit here and miss someone I never knew, someone I will never know. You can say that she is in my heart, that she is watching down on me, that her memory lives on within me. Explain to me how a memory of a person I NEVER KNEW can live on within me. Explain to me how I can cry night after night over a person I DON"T KNOW.
I don't have much to say except that I cannot keep going on living like this.
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